Zuster Aynur

salaam aleikum sisters:

Hello my name is Carla and my Islamic name is Aynur, I have been reading the stories from the bekeerde Muslimas and I also decided to write my story.
I come from a family that is not very good, my father is an alcoholic and my mother was most of the time working to be able to give me and my sister what we needed. I was just 3 months when my mother let me in my grandparents house together with my sister and we saw my mother 1 our 2 times a month because she worked a lot and my father was drunk all of the time and didn't work, my grandparents were for me like my parents. With them I learned a lot and I received a lot also, at age 6 I went back home to my mother and father and my live just became terrible, I saw every day that my father beat my mother a lot and very bad, I still remember like if it was today, I was alone and scared I just had my sister to help me. I stopped to believe in God, I didn't understand why He was let me pass through such pain's. I started to believe again when I met my husband 4 years ago. At age 16 I left Portugal and came to work in the Nederlands, together with my family and at age 19 I came to Den Haag where I met my husband, until here I did still not believe in God. Your nothing like that and my family are Catholic's, after I met my husband the things changed and he started to tell me about his religion about Islam and that Allah does exist and we need to believe if we want to have a life and Allah never lets us alone he is all the time with us. Together with his brother they opened my eyes and my hart and little by little I started to believe and see what they were telling me. I started to see a light in the end of the tunnel. A year later I had my first daughter and I saw that Allah did bless me with a perfect little girl and a great husband but even so I was still afraid of the reaction of my family and the other people.
I started to study Islam by reading books and see in the internet and listen to what my husband told me, and my believe started to be more and more strong, 1 year and 9 months later my other girl was born. Perfect one, more blessing from Allah the best that happened in my life, my 2 little girls, so last year by this time is making 1 year in the end of the month I decided to embrace Islam for good inshaAllah, I did my shahada at home together with my husband, it was the best thing ever I fell so good I was given a reason to live and I was happy to become a Muslim. It changed my life and changed me also, I have no regrets of becoming a Muslim I can't be more proud of being a Muslim.
The most difficult part was to tell my family that I became a Muslim, they don't understand and they are against Muslim people, they don't agree with my marriage and that I became Muslim as well, I almost don't see my parents and I only have the support of my sister and a few friends that are ok with my choice and happy for me also.
My daughter is now 3 years and she doesn't see her grand parents because they just don't want to see that this is my choice and that I'm happy, I lost my family but thanks to Allah I get other family a better family.
I just pray to Allah to help my parents understand that this is what I want and I'm happy so in time they will understand that. In March of last year I decided to start to wear the hijab and I told my parents and they just got mad and didn't understand my choice again, the using of the hijab just makes me see more far from what I see. I just try every day to find a way of getting more and more close to Allah by reading books, make my prayers, and study more about Islam. This is my story and my life, a life of pain that became the past and a new person is just born, with the blessings and understanding of Allah a new me and a very proud Muslim was just born.

May Allah bless you all and thank for your time.
salaam Aleichem.


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